While I do not buy that my weight loss and stress level are as a result of “worst case scenario thinking”, I do acknowledge that I engage in it, and that when I do, I feel worse. I admit that when I am not doing well physically, haven’t been eating or sleeping enough, my thinking can border on paranoid. The book talks about “worst case scenario thinking” being a tool learned as children to buffer us from disappointment which can be so overwhelming for kids. In adulthood though it can become a habit, “sucking the joy” from situations. Damn my uber intelligence!
So the first step is awareness.. Ok got it, I SOMETIMES have the tendency to look at the “worst case scenario”. With awareness comes the ability to over analyse myself when I engage in this behaviour...wait that is what got me here in the first place. How about having awareness and then rather than going into thinking about it or judging it, I will use my creative highly intelligent nature to dream up a best case scenario, or even a probable case scenario? So this is my intention, to lay down some new patterns and alleviate the stress of dreaming up impending doom trusting it will help me in many ways. And so it is!
“What patterns do you have that you think it is time to change?” is the question in 12 days journal #237
I dunno. I dream up best case scenarios all the time that never come to fruition, and yes, it is a serious disappointment! But I recognize the dangers of the worst case scenario thinking...I do it because I think I'm preparing myself for it somehow, or making sure it doesn't come as a complete shock to me when/if it hits me. My goal, as in most things, is to find balance. I need to work on finding the most livable and probable case scenario because that is most likely what will happen, while at the same time preparing for the worst but hoping for the best.
ReplyDeleteHow's that for overanalying? LOL. :-)