August 3, 2009

Day 7 Creative Words- Lexdycsic

“A thousand plastic flowers
Don’t make a desert bloom
A thousand empty faces
Don’t fill an empty room”
-Fritz Perls


I have been reading a lot of Fritz Perls lately....well ok that is not exactly true. I am SUPPOSE to be reading a lot of Fritz Perls, Gestalt Therapy Verbatim to be exact. I would tell you “it is not as dry as it sounds”, but I can’t because I have only made it to page 7, and Michael read me the first 4 pages....sigh.

Reading has never been easy for me, to even write that makes me feel embarrassed. I was diagnosed as having dyslexia when I was about 7, I don’t buy it. I was put into grade 1 when I was 5, was “taught” to read really young, too young. I don’t believe that I have trouble reading because I am dyslexic, I believe that I have trouble reading because I associate it with the stress of expectation. My 13 year old daughter can read twice as quickly as I can. This is the biggest leftover from the struggle I experienced with reading as a child; I am a slow reader. I also still struggle with reading for content, which again is related to stress, if I feel stressed while reading the information doesn’t stick, not surprising what is known about how stress effects memory. so my body was simply functioning in the way it was suppose to to a situation which was not age appropriate. So now as a 35 year old adult who has a required reading list a mile long for school, I struggle with the word “required”. It is a complete mind trip, if I were to have chosen the book for myself, I likely would have no problem with it, it is the fact that someone else has decided it for me that makes the reading a struggle. Again being 35 I KNOW ultimately I am choosing the reading by the nature of having chosen the course, but it is not a rational thing. My little 7 year old who had to skulk off to the “resource” room when reading time came round, still feels powerless, misunderstood and embarrassed. Perhaps once I read Gestalt Therapy Verbatim I will gain some knowledge about how to get over this. Until then here are a couple of jokes for ya:

Q: What do the letters D.N.A. stand for
A: National Dyslexic Association.

Didja hear about that new group DAM?
Mothers Against Dyslexia.

Didja hear about the dyslexic devil worshipper?
He ended up selling his soul to Santa.

ADDED LATER BECAUSE I FORGOT TO INCLUDE A QUESTION! The question in 12 days journal #112 is “Do you have a good story about something you forgot?“

5 comments:

  1. I like this post a lot, B, but you don't have a question for the journal (or did I misread? LOL...sorry, couldn't resist that one!).

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  2. OMG!! Thank you! I will re-post right away. THANK YOU!!

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  3. This makes me want to rewatch Caroline Leaf's video about "Who Switched Off My Brain?"!

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  4. Oh, so much here ... educational philosophies, physiological make up of our mind and soul, past hurts and wounds ...

    Make it creative...dance it out with your kids as you read ... burn new pathways and ...
    I hear forgiveness is the only way to tear off the thorns of memory trees and to lay new tracks over them!

    If anyone can motivate herself to grow and learn its YOU!

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  5. Sadly, I don't have a good story that I forgot. I forget a lot of things...A LOT...but a good story I pretty much never forget! LOL.

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