August 2, 2009

Day 6 Creative Words- Struggle

Do as I do but not as I say ,
or is it say as I say, not the other way?

Can I have this? It is what I need.
I promise it’s not my ego I feed

I’ll answer your question if you answer mine,
course I’ll make my transparency benign

If you want my number
make sure your willing to dial.
I’ll be keeping a tally
be keeping it all on file.
Every fear divulged
every perceived lie
when I need to cover my ass
The accusations will fly.

Don’t hurt me baby, you’ll pay if you do
It’ll be veiled and contorted but definitely true.

Conditional love is the name of the game,
I may call it “non attachment“ but we know it’s the same.

A cynical look at the new age languaging popularly used in my circles, hot on the tail of the communication commitment. It is the way of things, anytime a new movement comes along, as people struggle to make it their own, make it authentic, there is struggle. I know I struggle with making my inside match my outside; this poem is about that struggle.

”What do you struggle with?“ is the question in 12 days journal #111


  1. I struggle with setting priorities. I struggle with letting go of the things that are at the top of my list when life itself gets in the way of my being able to meet those priorities. I struggle sometimes with punctuality. I struggle sometimes with being as consistent as possible with my kids...I much prefer fluidity and non-rigidness, but I know they need consistency and a certain amount of structure and I struggle sometimes with being able to provide them with that.

  2. I struggle to stay surrendered,
    -and to walk in the Spirit and not the flesh,
    -and to consistently walk out the truth...
    "I do the very thing I don't want to
    and don't do the what I do want...",
    -and to hear His Voice