tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-123460635103303488.post6862110703132885193..comments2024-03-22T00:25:12.029-07:00Comments on 12 days 2 inspire .com: Day 8 Walkabout- Bloody ConfusionMagdelene ~ Lover, Mother, Mystichttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01130333217424478940noreply@blogger.comBlogger5125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-123460635103303488.post-89965158661710500052009-09-18T22:08:27.218-07:002009-09-18T22:08:27.218-07:00I hear you, Anthony. I spent almost 10 years livin...I hear you, Anthony. I spent almost 10 years living in survival mode and miserable and unhappy. It was hard when I first changed my circumstances to move out of that mode or mindset. Now that I have, though, and I see how much happier and fuller my life is, it is kind of hard to understand why anyone would choose to stay in that place. But no, I haven't forgotten how hard it is, believe me.<br /><br />I'm pretty much a complete stranger...you can talk to me if you need to.Angel Atwaterhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17400100745812977490noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-123460635103303488.post-90538926905799763942009-09-11T22:47:57.694-07:002009-09-11T22:47:57.694-07:00As with everything it's about survival. If at ...As with everything it's about survival. If at one time you survived by being miserable, when anything like that shows up again you will be miserable because you know you will survive. Obviously the opposite is true and happiness associated with survival will ensure happiness in subsequent similar events.<br /><br /> the thing is is to get control back from these past events which seems risky as you're not sticking to your known survival techniques. I find that talking to complete strangers, performing in front of an audience and letting my friends in on my emotional state breaks some of those barriers. Scary but exhilarating.Anthonynoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-123460635103303488.post-38806820849698378482009-09-11T07:51:10.024-07:002009-09-11T07:51:10.024-07:00I'm right there with you, sister...we are appa...I'm right there with you, sister...we are apparently moon cycling together this time! How crazy is that?! LOL. And you didn't fool me with the photo...the color wasn't quite right. Nice try, though! LOL!<br /><br />I am confused about why it's so hard for people to find happiness in their lives. I'm confused about why so many people seem to choose unhappiness and think that's the best they can hope for.Angel Atwaterhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17400100745812977490noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-123460635103303488.post-13829542938195560662009-09-10T17:51:37.828-07:002009-09-10T17:51:37.828-07:00Nice to see you back AnthonyNice to see you back AnthonyMagdelene ~ Lover, Mother, Mystichttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01130333217424478940noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-123460635103303488.post-34736549917093311722009-09-09T21:53:25.648-07:002009-09-09T21:53:25.648-07:00What confuses you about life? I find that things c...What confuses you about life? I find that things change within me or around me although i don't appear to change, and that things appear to motivate me that I am unaware of. Some days, like the last few, people have been appearing around me and hugging me and we are enjoying each others company and then a few days later nothing much at all. It's like this switch goes on and off. Maybe if I knew all about astrology I could explain it, I could always ask my friend Dave the astrologer. As for motivation, that is clearer. Either I am motivated by what I want or need or I am motivated by some past experience, now relegated to the unconcious. The former is what I am after but all too often the latter takes over. A week ago or so I discovered how much fear I held in myself and have been unaware how much that emotion has directed my life. I acknowledge that fear has helped keep me safe and at the same time how it has restricted me. I am shifting the balance inevitably in my desire to be closer to others and to achieve what I want in life.Anthonynoreply@blogger.com