tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-123460635103303488.post3226513725963465153..comments2024-03-22T00:25:12.029-07:00Comments on 12 days 2 inspire .com: Day 3 Final Commitment- Bleeding, Helping and my Family Before...Magdelene ~ Lover, Mother, Mystichttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01130333217424478940noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-123460635103303488.post-89685521829224504822010-03-27T19:10:53.271-07:002010-03-27T19:10:53.271-07:00Not with the people I know and love well. With st...Not with the people I know and love well. With strangers or new people in my life, it takes time, unless there are one of those amazing moments when you just connect almost instantly and the trust is just there right from the beginning. But that is generally rare. It takes time, but I think that's probably the way it should be.Angel Atwaterhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17400100745812977490noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-123460635103303488.post-2010009300086297312010-03-27T15:07:09.424-07:002010-03-27T15:07:09.424-07:00Q. Do you find it difficult to trust?
A. Yes I do....Q. Do you find it difficult to trust?<br />A. Yes I do. Somewhere in my early life trusting had the inevitable outcome of me ending up looking like a complete idiot. Being made fun of, falling over or into something, being rejected,abandoned or ignored.<br /> I trusted my parents but they could turn nasty sometimes, I trusted my sister but she was not always interested in what I was interested in. I trusted teachers for a while, but they were often disappointing and sometimes sadistic. I trusted doctors, like my parents did, but this ended with pain and suffering and occasionally the loss of a body part<br /><br />So after enough of that, I decided not to trust anyone, far safer. I could reject people before they rejected me. Safer but lonely. Then, as teenager I discovered girls and love, or lust, or obsession, or whatever it was. And I found I could get hurt, rejected and abandoned all over again! This time driven by a new powerful force that kept me going on the face of all that, plus looking for people and situations that would fulfill the expectations that my life up to then had created.<br /><br />Finally at some point I had become an almost complete self-fulfilling prophesy machine, like many people around me and I could create much the same outcome from any set of circumstances.<br />That point was around the time my marriage ended and since then the job has been deconstructing most of my former life and letting go of everything that does not resemble love and empowerment.<br />Sometimes I'm surprised how trustworthy and trusting some people areAnthonynoreply@blogger.com